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Melancholy At A party (personal)

Sun, 07 May 2006 01:25:34 GMT

Today was day of sullen disapointment. I woke my monsterous ass up, got a shower, and started lucubrating my report for my Into to Film class. So far I managed to write an entire page in a half. I don't know where I'm going with this report so I figure I just meander through it. I masterbated to pornography like I always do.........becuase when you're a loser like me and you have noone to comfort you start touching yourself to perverted pictures on the internet. ah, the things men think of......

My punk populist friend Brad decides to give me a call to see if I wanted to be celebratory with him. I said sure becuase I have nothing to do. I figured that I finish my report at the person who is hosting this gala of punks. I'm not a punk, but I like to divesify the people that I meet. I travel with him and his illustrious spouse; Marline. In my opion, she's mellow and as crass as he is (I call them the crass couple, an accuate sobriquet) I travled sliently with him to pick up this pugnacious drunk named neuman. Now I'm here with a bunch of boisterous drunks. An austere man with a these kind of people is like sticking a sillhoutte of sasquach with a conclave of hunters. I just don't feel right here. Call me paranoid, but I fear if they become too intoxicated they might bury me out outside with the rest of the insects.

I showed the hosts my poetry and the extolled it. Unfortunately, their praises are vacuous because in the morning they won't remember a single line becuase they will be occupied with their afflictive hangover. The smell of stale cigarette smoke is suffcating my frail lungs as we speak. And it doesn't help that I'm an asthmatic either. I feel like shit, but I'm in a somber disposition where ever I go. When I'm with couples (espically with the crass couple) my depression crescendos rapidly. When I see two people in love , it makes yearn for tenderness. I long for someone to cherish me as much as I hallow them. But, being fat, diffrent, and compassionate keeps women away. I feel like I'm every woman's anathema. Like just because I'm not arrogant, have an dilated phallus, or musclar I'm treated like pond scum.

I'm growing weary of the drunken obnoxiousness this group is resonating. I don't know I guess I'm used to the sweet sound of slience. I'm unsure if the melancholy I feel will ever fade after I leave this crowd. I'm setting here sober; embodying the straight edge ethos and still feeling like a bovine's fecal matter. I feel that if I start drinking, that I'll become the man I hate and end up incarcerated for raping these nubile naifs Brad affliates with. I'm too much of a feminist to do such a horrid thing like that so I stay away from the bottle. I guess I have to stay the night here. I will await for death to come and take me from this world.

A new poem- Disengage

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 21:22:10 GMT

I sit deceived, bereaved; I don’t know what to believe.

I love for you increases with velocity.

My melancholy for your decision mounts with intensity.

As, my deep depression crescendos

You and your spouse exchange sexual innuendos.

No! I refuse to let this lovelorn disaster become my new outrage.

No! Disengage! Disengage!

As, you become enamored with a total stranger.

I put myself in psychosomatic danger.

I won’t be surmounted in anger

I won’t resolve in becoming the romantic avenger.

No! I refuse to let this lovelorn disaster become my new outrage

No! Disengage! Disengage!

No! I refuse to let this let lovelorn disaster become my new outrage

No! Disengage! Disengage!

As, my eyes begin to emit my teary cytoplasm.

You are procreating approaching orgasm.

As, I begin to reach wistful catharsis.

I feel that I am the third wheel, spinning off an improper axis.

When I contemporaneously continue weeping

You spouse finally starts ejaculating.

No! I refuse to let this lovelorn disaster become my new outrage.

No! Disengage! Disengage!

Afterwards, I masticate food for closure.

This ambrosia induces amnesia.

Just what I need, forgetting you with the food I eat.

No! I refuse to let this lovelorn disaster become my new outrage.

No! Disengage! Disengage!

No! I refuse to let this lovelorn disaster become my new outrage.

No! Disengage! Disengage!

A democrat with a spine

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 21:18:41 GMT

A liberal Democrat and potential White House contender is proposing that the Senate censure President Bush for authorizing domestic eavesdropping, saying the White House misled Americans about its legality.

"The president has broken the law, and, in some way, he must be held accountable," Sen. Russell Feingold (D-Wis.) said.

A censure resolution, which simply would scold the president, has been used just once -- against Andrew Jackson in 1834 over a dispute about banking.

Senate Majority Leader Bill Frist (R-Tenn.) called the proposal "a crazy political move" that would weaken the United States during wartime.

The five-page resolution to be introduced today contends that Bush violated the law when he set up the eavesdropping program within the National Security Agency. Bush says that his authority as commander in chief and a September 2001 congressional authorization to use force in the fight against terrorism gave him the power to authorize the surveillance.

The White House had no immediate response.

In the House, Rep. John Conyers Jr. (Mich.), top Democrat on the House Judiciary Committee, is pushing legislation that would call on Congress to determine whether there are grounds for impeachment.

The program gave intelligence officers the power to monitor -- without court approval -- the international phone calls and e-mails of U.S. residents, when those officers suspect terrorism may be involved.

Frist, appearing on ABC's "This Week," said that he hoped al-Qaeda and other U.S. enemies were not listening to the infighting.

"The signal that it sends, that there is in any way a lack of support for our commander in chief who is leading us with a bold vision in a way that is making our homeland safer, is wrong," Frist said.

Feingold was the only senator to vote in 2001 against the USA Patriot Act, expanding the government's surveillance and prosecutorial powers. My View: I think that this shows that the commander- in chief has abused his powers. Lawyers are allready composing the impeachment papers agianst bush....I hope that that happens soon!

Today's politcal cartoon of the day

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 05:30:29 GMT

I feel bad today...sorry for the lackidasical posing

Video Shows that Bush was warned of imminet hurricane

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 05:12:26 GMT

A newly leaked video recording of high-level government deliberations the day before Hurricane Katrina hit shows disaster officials emphatically warning President Bush that the storm posed a catastrophic threat to New Orleans and the Gulf Coast, and a grim-faced Bush personally assuring state leaders that his administration was "fully prepared" to help.

The footage, taken of a videoconference of federal and state officials on Aug. 28, offered an unusually vivid glimpse of real-time decision making by an administration that has vigorously guarded its internal deliberations.

Reactions to the tape, which was obtained by the Associated Press, varied widely -- reflecting the intense debate that has brewed for six months about who should be held accountable for an initially flaccid government response to the catastrophe.

Democrats said the tape shows Bush being warned in urgent terms of the potential magnitude of the storm, making it less defensible that the administration did not act with more dispatch to be ready.

White House officials said the footage reinforces what they have said to critics: that the president, at his Texas vacation home, was fully engaged from the opening hours of the emergency, while leaving operational decisions to the agencies in charge.

Bush was dialed into the conference Sunday at noon Eastern time from a meeting room at his ranch in Crawford, with Deputy Chief of Staff Joseph Hagin at his side.

"I want to assure the folks at the state level that we are fully prepared to not only help you during the storm, but we will move in whatever resources and assets we have at our disposal after the storm," Bush said, gesturing with both hands for emphasis on the digital recording. Neither Bush nor Hagin asked questions, however.

Then-Federal Emergency Management Agency Director Michael D. Brown, who joined the call from Washington, and Max Mayfield, head of the National Hurricane Center in Miami, briefed participating federal and state officials in explicit terms.

"This is, to put it mildly, the big one," Brown said. "Everyone within FEMA is now virtually on call."

Brown warned that thousands of New Orleans residents were gathering in a shelter of last resort at the Louisiana Superdome, which he said was about 12 feet below sea level.

"I don't know what the heck we're going to do for that, and I also am concerned about that roof," Brown said. "Not to be kind of gross here, but I'm concerned about [medical and mortuary disaster team] assets and their ability to respond to a catastrophe within a catastrophe."

Mayfield cited the 1992 storm that inflicted $20 billion of damage on South Florida.

"This hurricane is much larger than Hurricane Andrew ever was," Mayfield said. "I also want to make absolutely clear to everyone that the greatest potential for large loss of life is still in the coastal areas from the storm surge."

Congressional investigators previously released transcripts of the daily meetings, and their substance and other warnings of the danger to New Orleans have been widely reported.

The fresh footage, however, was prominently aired on evening television news broadcasts and threatened to renew public scrutiny of the Bush administration, which issued a report last week containing 125 recommendations to improve U.S. disaster readiness but little focus on the action of senior presidential aides.

White House spokesman Trent Duffy said yesterday the footage showed that Bush was heavily engaged while leaving "battlefield" decisions to his commanders.

"The president had multiple conversations, phone calls and briefings both big and small throughout this process, and his whole priority was making sure that the federal assets were brought to bear to help the people of New Orleans," Duffy said.

He added: "That's not to say the president was satisfied with the federal response. He wasn't. He said as much, and we just had a 200-page-plus federal report discussing the things the president needs to do to make our emergency response better."

Duffy noted that a transcript of the Aug. 29 conference showed Hagin asking about the status of the Superdome and New Orleans levees. In the same conference, Brown said he spoke twice that morning with Bush, who he said was "very engaged" and asking those same questions and others about city hospitals.

Duffy also said that Louisiana Gov. Kathleen Babineaux Blanco (D) personally discounted a report of a catastrophic levee break as "unconfirmed" in a noon call. "I think we have not breached the levees at this point in time," Blanco said, but she added that city flooding was severe.

Brown, in an interview yesterday, agreed that Bush was engaged in the emergency but said the president was overconfident of FEMA's capabilities. He dismissed as "baloney" assertions by Homeland Security Secretary Michael Chertoff that "a fog of war" impaired decision making in Washington.

"There was this fog of bureaucracy," Brown said, repeating his call to restore FEMA to independent, Cabinet-level status outside the department. "People either didn't want to know about it, or didn't want to deal with it."

Brown said the video showed "I was doing everything I could," whatever his mistakes. "My entreaties to the White House about the problems that FEMA was having were falling on deaf ears," he said. "They thought I could always pull a rabbit out of the hat."

In New Orleans, Mayor C. Ray Nagin (D) was visibly shocked when shown the recording by reporters.

It "seems they were aware of everything . . . that we would need lots of help," Nagin said after a post-Mardi Gras news conference. "Why was the response so slow?"

When the video ended, Nagin turned away and said, "Oh, God."

Democrats in Washington issued statements newly critical of the government response.

Sen. Mary L. Landrieu (D-La.) expressed alarm at "what the president actually knew and when he knew it."

Sen. Joseph I. Lieberman (Conn.), ranking Democrat on a Senate panel investigating the storm response, said the video underscored the committee's findings that "government at all levels was forewarned of the catastrophic nature of the approaching storm and did painfully little to be ready."

The Department of Homeland Security has provided transcripts but not recordings of the videoconferences to Congress, and the AP did not report how it obtained the footage. A congressional source, speaking on the condition of anonymity because investigators were seeking the tape, said state officials may have recorded the meetings. My View: That means bush lied and actually knew that the levees were broken. And it shows that even though he know the response was still dismal..... no wonder why his appoval ratings are at 34% http://www.cbsnews.com/stories/2006/02/27/opinion/polls/main1350874.shtml

Today's Cartoon of The Day

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 21:17:16 GMT

Bush Threatens to veto bill that stops Dubai deal, even though Dubi has terrorist connections:http://www.nytimes.com/2006/02/22/politics/22port.html?_r=1&th=&oref=slogin&emc=th&pagewanted=print

A new poem

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 20:34:38 GMT

The Repulsive Repository

Come to my little treasure chest.

A place my dear, where dreadful secrets are put to rest.

A place my sweet, containing bloody machetes and severed heads.

The place; where the murderous and malevolent bury their thoughts and their dead.

Come closer to my treasured container.

Where, I keep my young victim’s vibrant retainers.

Come here my little darling.

Come see the dilated intestinal tracts dangling.

Various tracts; dangling down this abysmal strongbox responsible for my active paradox.

As you approach towards my collections of murmured hearts.

Hearts that had irregular beats during my suffocation of insignificant tarts.

I have to ask you; is the fear seeping though you?

For me, the memories are a mirabile dictu of the people I killed.

Come tremble in this repulsive repository.

Where the massacres where ambulatory.

Come see the phalluses of incestuous boys

The penises which I use for enemas and sex toys.

This box is a real thriller.

A thriller for me and other schizophrenic spree killers.

Killers who enjoy raping and collecting the labia’s of dead prostitutes with Chlamydia.

This box gives me a manic relapse.

It relays serotonin down my synapse.

If you dare tell confess this sick secret to the authorities.

You will be assassinated like two of the Kennedy’s.

My imaginary intuition tells me you’re going to tell the police about this.

Guess what jezebel, I’m right behind you.

And I think it’s time you took a trip to the coroner’s office.

Today's politcal cartoon of the day:

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 21:48:18 GMT

White house knew of broken levees night before hurricanehttp://http://www.nytimes.com/2006/02/10/politics/10katrina.html?_r=1&th&emc=th&oref=slogin
Former intelligence offical testifes that the Bush Adminstration misused intelligence in iraq:http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2006/02/09/AR2006020902418.html?referrer=email&referrer=email

Abramoff has ties with the White House, but Bush Adminstration in deinal;

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 21:31:35 GMT

Three former associates of Jack Abramoff say the now-convicted lobbyist frequently told them he had strong ties to the White House through presidential confidant Karl Rove.

The White House said Monday night that Rove remembers meeting Abramoff at a 1990s political meeting and considered the lobbyist a "casual acquaintance" since President Bush took office in 2001.

New questions have arisen about Abramoff's ties to the White House since a photo emerged over the weekend showing Abramoff with Bush. The White House would not release the photo or any others that Bush had taken with Abramoff. Also surfacing were the contents of an e-mail from Abramoff to Washingtonian magazine claiming he had met briefly with the president nearly a dozen times and that Bush knew him well enough to make joking references to Abramoff's family.

Three former business associates of Abramoff, who worked with the lobbyist in various roles between 2001 and 2004, told The Associated Press that Abramoff routinely mentioned Rove when talking about his influence inside the White House.

One said he was present when Abramoff took a call from Rove's office to confirm a White House meeting had been approved between Malaysia's prime minister and Bush in May 2002. Abramoff was being paid by Malaysia for helping it in Washington, according to evidence the Senate has made public.

All three associates would describe the Abramoff comments only on condition of anonymity, citing the ongoing investigation of Abramoff's work and fears that speaking out could affect their current businesses. At least one said he had been interviewed by the FBI.

Abramoff was a $100,000 fundraiser for Bush and lobbying records obtained by the AP show his lobbying team logged nearly 200 meetings with the administration during its first 10 months in office on behalf of one of his clients, the Northern Mariana Islands.

The contacts between Abramoff's team and the administration included meetings with Attorney General John Ashcroft and policy advisers to Vice President Dick Cheney, the AP reported last year.

Abramoff's former assistant, Susan Ralston, went to work for Rove in 2001. Abramoff's legal team declined comment Monday night.

According to one of the three former associates, frequently Abramoff's cell phone would ring and the lobbyist would tell the associate that the White House was calling. To prove that he wasn't making up what he was telling the associate, Abramoff occasionally would hold up the phone so that the associate could see the incoming call was indeed a White House phone number.

Abramoff has pleaded guilty in a fraud and bribery conspiracy case and is cooperating with the investigation into those in Congress and the administration he used to lobby.

Asked about the three former Abramoff associates' account, the White House said Rove shared a common past with Abramoff as leaders of a young Republicans group decades ago.

"Mr. Rove remembers they had met at a political event in the 1990s," White House spokeswoman Erin Healy said. "Since then, he would describe him as a casual acquaintance."

Healy said Rove has "no recollection" of talking to Abramoff about the Malaysian prime minister's meeting in May 2002. She said Bush first met the prime minister at a foreign summit in October 2001 and that the 2002 meeting in the Oval Office was "another opportunity to get together to discuss the war on terror." My View: I think that abramoff was very well connected with the entire republican party, but now they are detaching themselves away from the obvious fact!

Hillarious: Cheney shoot friend and then friend has heart attack

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 21:18:05 GMT

The 78-year-old lawyer wounded by Vice President Dick Cheney in a hunting accident suffered a mild heart attack Tuesday after a shotgun pellet in his chest traveled to his heart, hospital officials said.

Harry Whittington was immediately moved back to an intensive care unit and will be watched for a week to make sure more pellets do not move to other vital organs. He was reported in stable condition.

Whittington suffered a "silent heart attack" - an irregular heartbeat, but without the classic heart-attack symptoms of pain and pressure, according to doctors at Christus Spohn Hospital Corpus Christi-Memorial.

The doctors said they decided to treat the situation conservatively and leave the pellet alone rather than operate to remove it. They said they are extremely optimistic Whittington will recover and live a healthy life with the pellet left in place.

Asked whether the pellet could move farther into his heart and become fatal, hospital officials said that was a hypothetical question they could not answer.

Hospital officials said they were not concerned about the six to 200 other pieces of birdshot that might still be lodged in Whittington's body. Cheney was using 7 1/2 shot from a 28-gauge shotgun. Shotgun pellets are typically made of steel or lead; the pellets in 7 1/2 shot are just under a tenth of an inch in diameter.

Cheney watched the news conference where doctors described Whittington's complications. Then the vice president called him, wished him well and asked if there was anything that he needed.

"The vice president said that he stood ready to assist. Mr. Whittington's spirits were good, but obviously his situation deserves the careful monitoring that his doctors are providing," the vice president's office said in a statement.

Cheney, an experienced hunter, has not spoken publicly about the accident, which took place Saturday night while the vice president was aiming for a quail. Critics of the Bush administration called for more answers from the Cheney himself.

The furor over the accident and the White House delay in making it public are "part of the secretive nature of this administration," said Senate Democratic Leader Harry Reid of Nevada. "I think it's time the American people heard from the vice president."

Hospital officials said they knew that Whittington had some birdshot near his heart and that there was a chance it could move closer since scar tissue had not had time to harden and hold the pellet in place.

After Whittington developed an irregular heartbeat, doctors performed a cardiac catheterization, in which a thin, flexible tube is inserted into the heart, to diagnose his condition, said Peter Banko, the administrator at the hospital.

The shot was either touching or embedded in the heart muscle near the top chambers, called the atria, officials said. Two things resulted:

-It caused inflammation that pushed on the heart in a way to temporarily block blood flow, what the doctors called a "silent heart attack." This is not a traditional heart attack where an artery is blocked. They said Whittington's arteries, in fact, were healthy.

-It irritated the atria, caused an irregular heartbeat known as atrial fibrillation, which is not immediately life-threatening. But it must be treated because it can spur blood clots to form. Most cases can be corrected with medication.

White House physicians helped advise on the course of treatment, hospital officials said.

Texas officials said the shooting was an accident and no charges were brought against the vice president.

A Texas Parks and Wildlife Department report issued Monday said Whittington was retrieving a downed bird and stepped out of the hunting line he was sharing with Cheney. "Another covey was flushed and Cheney swung on a bird and fired, striking Whittington in the face, neck and chest at approximately 30 yards," the report said. My Opion: Mr Cheney keeps claiming weapons of mass destruction. Well guess what; he is a weapon of mass destruction! This is sad yet comical.